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I know I havent posted much my battle with anxiety wages on...its 3:11 am and I cant sleep my sweet darling little Nesta has to have a surgery in the morning to remove an umbilical lesion...its got me in hives nearly....anyhow I just thought I would post..there is a ton of stress surrounding this and other things to kinda a ripple effect going right now.I cant feed him since midnight poor dear had to cry his self to sleep while I rocked and sang yet he wanted his milk he rooted for a long time and gave little pouts when I didnt give in to his cry.His cute little bottom lip poking out at me with his big crocdile tears and wimper just melted my heart and to think I have to hand him over tommorow and let them put him to sleep and cut him without me there and I have to sit and wait well it just kills me...Im going to tell them though if Im not called back there the very moment hes out of surgery Im going to be one mad mommy..none of this wait till he wakes stuff oh no.I wish I could protect him from this and it hurts so bad I cant.Im so afraid too. 
Love is such a scary emotion sometimes.
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Hold tight Jenn
Just hang on for dear life. Things shall get better. What a nasty little crisis to have to deal with when you don't need it. Poor little fellow, poor you
. I can imagine how you must be feeling right now.
I'm sure they have the surgery booked for early in the day don't they? I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of loving vibes your way>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Let us know how things went as soon as your able.
{{{{{{Jenn}}}}}}
You're in my thoughts today
Rose
Jenn, let us know...
I so understand your feelings...prayers are going up for you and your sweet baby.
It'll be ok
I am sure they told you its just a routine surgery,,but its not routine if it is your little baby is it. I'm sure though everything will be fine.
you need to stay strong for your other little ones
our thoughts will be with you and your DS ,,let us know how it goes
I'm sure it was hard for you to not feed him,,,I know its hard not to feed MYSELF!!
all the best
Wishing you the best!
Much love, Jenn
Please let us know how it goes.
Lynn Siprelle, Editor
You'll be in my prayers tonig
You'll be in my prayers tonight, Jenn. please let us know how it turns out!!
Thanks So Much
...For all your support.The surgery went very quick and they had to use very little anesthesia on him.I was able to bring him home in two hours with three stitches in his tummy but still home.It was attached to his bladder but they closed the tunnel off and all should be well.He has a follow up on monday and it feels like a ton of relief for me to have it all be over with.Im happy my baby is home and okay!Thanks again for the support.I love you all and in my toughest times you all are close to my heart. I try to think of what the world would be like if all people were as loving and caring.
good news!
I'm so glad to hear that all is well! Even "routine" procedures are hard on us, aren't they? Sounds like you BOTH did great!
Much love,
Lenora
hooray
That's a relief!
a little late here...
but glad everything went well for you Jenn. Nothing feels routine when it's your own child, and I reckon we suffer far more from having to watch one of our loved ones in pain than from being in pain ourselves. The feelings of helplessness are bad enough under normal circumstances, but I should imagine that your depression really magnified it all. Just as well you were already working with that, not letting it slide.
So how's it going with your PPOCD?? Have you had a proper appointment and some kind of treatment programme started yet?? Feels like I've been away forever rather than just 6 days! This place gets under your skin and it's hard to be away!
Kerri.
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