Welcome to you again! When you said, "My problem is that I feel that I have to have a young baby to be worthy of staying at home" Oh boy could I relate to that...I have college age kids! I love being at home...I do run a small crafting soap making venture, and work 6 hours in a local library, but other than that I am HOME...and I love it...I also struggle with "society's" pressure of what one "should" be doing with their time...or career...I have also struggled with the blank stare that I get from people when I say I am home or a homemaker...or the loud gasp when they say "YOUR STILL AT HOME WHY? ARENT YOU SICK OF IT, DONT YOU GET BORED?" OMG their is so much to do...I am the vacation-entertainment manager, housekeeper, home interior designer, cook, financial budget and "college finanical aid wizard", small business entrepeneur (I earn vacation money), pyschiatric counselor (those late night, "my boyfried broke up with me phone calls), household manager, and overseer of the thousand misc. things that no one else has time for...and I am sure I left a thousand other things out as well..Although I struggle with my choice from time to time for the reasons mentioned above, I also have become more sure of myself, and have learned so much about who I am and what I need in my life by making the choice that I did, by staying home...it fits for me and it fits for my family and in the end, that is what really matters...I am learning day by day to stand up to to the judgements of others...which was a lesson that was important for me to learn....but you are right...it is very hard...when you have older children, to face others when in today's society,when it does not seem to be the norm to stay at home when children get older....hang in there, and go with what your heart is telling you and only wonderful blessings will follow!
Susan MOM of Cindy and Joey, Soapmaker and Librarian