I so hear ya Lynn. I have been through the chronic illness wringer myself. I have BPPV (Benign Positional Vertigo), High Blood Pressure, Asthma, Sleep Apnea, Arthritis (knee replacement comining), Chronic Sinus Infections, TMJ Syndrome and I just had a darn root canal that I dont think worked, bad stretch of luck I guess.... And then I think, who the heck called this positional vertigo benign? I am having a bad spell of it and I cant even lay down and sleep without my head spinning. So letting go is the word of the day for me today. Somewhere in my head I feel there should be something I should be doing that would just fix it all, but all I really have control over, is what I have control over, and that is just that. Stinks doesnt it? I guess I was used to having things under control. The mom who does it all, but I have learned a very hard lesson about what I can control lately... So today I will nurture myself with relaxation tapes and try to learn to pamper myself a bit. It is so easy to do for others, and really hard to do for myself. Maybe just maybe this is the lesson I am supposed to be learning at this point in time..who knows...but anyway...letting go is the word for the day today.