It does get better. I'll assure you of it, but it takes time. I went through it after having an eclamptic seizure with our first son. I remembered lying there, telling them I'd be fine and to just let me rest, but then watching as my husband signed papers to have me wheeled into the OR for a c-section. I guess no one heard me, or maybe I was barely there. I dunno. I remember kicking the nurse that tried to put a catheter (sp?) in, since they thought I was too out of it to notice, I let them know I did, but then they knocked me out. I woke up a mom, and I HATED my husband for months. I swore up and down that the suffering and the surgery was his fault since he signed those papers when I was there telling him not to. But, no one remembers me saying anything, or responding at all. So, I felt like I was going nuts--remembering things others say didn't happen, or couldn't have happened, and every situation I was in, I would panic.

I even remember thinking that joggers that ran by our house were murderers and that I needed to hide myself and the baby. Nuts, I know.

BUT, I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel normal now, and I just wanted to encourage you and let you know that although once in awhile it pops back, there is going to be a time when you'll feel great again. Good luck, and don't be afraid to let it out. I healed the fastest when I finally told DH all the emotions I felt and we cried together. Plus, from what I gather on here JJ is an awesome husband for you.