I've always been able to speak up and say what I want. The problem is that what I want (and essentially who I am) has always been so directed by the influence of others. So now, when I'm completely free to do/be/have what I want--I'm not sure I can identify it! Or at least I'm not sure I can swear with complete certainty that it's not associated with someone else.

I have done some thinking earlier today, though. I may be on to something...