Thanks for the support. The hospice really isn't that great here but the idea to have a teen sit is a good one. I'll have to look into that. The woman who comes and sits is so wonderful and she always brings treats with her but she's spread so thin that it's hard to pin a time down. And scince she doesn't get paid she can make her own hours. I've found that more than the juggling act and meeting everyones needs it is emotionaly tearing me apart. I thought I could distance myself, that it wouldn't affect me, after all she isn't my mother. Boy was I wrong. I didn't realize how much I love this woman and watching her die well I"m just not sure I'm strong enough. I haven't posted in so long because things are constant but she's started to sleep more and more and eat less and less so in a way I have more time but it's not a good thing because I know she's getting worse. One day soon she will die, in my house with me. I'm the one that's going to be holding her hand from this world to the next. On the one hand it is a wonderful feeling knowing that we have that kind of relationship but on the other hand it is very scary. I'm glad I found TNH, just knowing that when I have the time I can always come here and someone will understand and support me. Thanks.